Hey guys. Happy consumer season.

I've not kept up with lj at all lately, except Moonlocket. I feel so out of touch X-x;

I've been thinking of getting back into iconing. I stumbled over an old account, and found a lot of icons. I think I've prolly forgotten how to make good icons anymore, but we'll see. I might kick it off with something ri-fickin'-diculous like an icon challenge, just to really discourage me, lulz.

I don't suppose I have anything else interesting to say. XD; But anyway!

Much loves from the Rico, and you all can always poke me on AIM. ♥

It's kind of sad when you have to choose between taking the day off of work to go to your uncle's funeral and going to work to literally be able to keep your utilities on.

Please don't hold it against me, Uncle John. And rest in peace. We just found out three days ago he had terminal cancer. He worked up until a week ago.

So in the LJ spotlight this week is this girl named Jamie. She's living my dream in part, being an American living in Japan doing something she loves. She's acting and helping draw Shin Prince of Tennis. I'd love to be able to act in Japan. And help on a manga too, don't get me wrong! But I don't really have a strong hold on the dream to be a successful manga artist. Here or there. I do still want to go to Japan to be a teacher of English. But of course I have to get into college first. Which for reason after reason keeps not happening. One of my co-workers just got accepted into Savannah College of Art and Design. So in the fall, she'll be leaving our happy little art store and going into the world of animation. Fulfilling her dreams. Anyway. The reason this girl depresses me so much is because she's so happy and optimistic. Why can't I be like that? Why can't I think "I have no money? But it'll be okay, I'll figure it out! ♥" like she does?

Why do people have dreams? What's the point in believing in them? It's like I can't figure out if I'm too lazy to go after them somehow or I'm just that much of an utter failure.

It seems like everything's hopeless right now. And it's all because of money.

I don't have the gas to get to work for the rest of the week. My bank account is overdrawn $155 because Wachovia decided to slap some absurd $140 overdraft charge on me. So when my check goes through Thursday night/Friday morning, almost all of it will be eaten up by the overdraft, leaving me without the money to pay the water bill, which will be cut off before I get my next paycheck. Everyone I know is broke. I don't know what to do anymore.

Note to self: when playing trivial pursuit, the answer will probably be in English. So no matter how much you've watched Transylvania no Mori or Chou Wakusei Death Vulcan no Fuuin, "a creature that has no reflection, can't stand sunlight or garlic" will still be "vampire" and not "kyuuketsuki". Ergo, the answer you're shouting out will not be on the list.

That is all.

Oh yes. I am starting NaNoWriMo. Halfway through the month. ♥ Long live idiocy~

God. Today was the worst day I've had at my new job by FAR.

First, I arrived four minutes late. No, that's not a big deal in itself, but all the unloaders (my job) clock in and out together. Then, I get crushed in between a pallet stacked taller than me of heavy chemicals and the bin (which is solid steel). No, dear trainer, I didn't need that hip, and of course I could use the massive bruise I suffered because of said crushing. =D

Thank you, to the lady who-I-thought-was-my-teacher-but-actually-wasn't for being so pleasant about my stupidity. Thank you, to the creepy guy who couldn't speak English well enough so he had to get his buddy to translate for him that "wants to marry me" for only asking once and not pestering me further. Thank you to the hispanic gentlemen for only giving me weird "WTF" looks when I pointed you to the "shoe guards" instead of the "sugar", and not yelling at me. Thank you to the lady for only giving me weird "WTF" looks when I took you to the "corn chips" instead of the "coin slips" and also not yelling at me.

Then there was the lady who made me climb up on a ladder in a busy aisle to get a pinata so she could carry it around in her cart for ten minutes then leave the pinata on my pallet of water that I was stocking telling me to put it back.

To the manager that can't come tell 2nd shift unloaders personally that they need to stock 2 liters when they're done with break, and instead loudly announce over the intercom "Unloaders, your break is over. I need those 2 liters stocked now!" -- fuck you too, madam. Third shift has all night, we're not a 24-hour store. And it's their job anyway.

I have also, somehow, managed to injure myself no less than four times today. XD And my feet are killing me because the insoles I bought have too-high arches that push up against my feet. D=

Karma, I don't know what I did to piss you off, but I'm sorry! ;_; Maybe tomorrow will be better. (I think I'm crushing on one of my unloader co-workers, damn it. We sang "Dirty Little Secret" together last night, that was fun. XD)

However, I did get my laptop back today~ ♥ Life is better already.

Edit: And I just got a Salmon on AIM. *headdesk* I GIVE UP, I SWEAR! XD

Well I'm depressed now.

I graduated from High School one year ago from this Monday. The school had their graduation tonight.

Not only did I miss it, I have been reminded that I've spent one year doing approximately JACK. Not that I haven't tried, as my Dad pointed out. My mom went psycho on me and I had to drop out of school because she wouldn't let me in the house. Grrrrgh. Dad's still pissed about that. I'm not exactly happy myself.

I'm going to go apply for a job either tomorrow or monday at the local Wendy's (you want fries with that?) for a job since it's right up near the college. I'm going to try and get in for the summer semester, if not, then fall most definitely. I'm tired of sitting on my ass.

No other news, unfortunately. Sorry for the rant with no happy stuff. XD

EDIT: Look, y'all! Rico has her own dance! 8D XDD

I'm kinda giddy right now. And this will sound goofy to most of you (especially those of you that know Japanese XD; ). But today, I thought, "you know, I've never written my name in Japanese," so today, I wrote it out in hiragana. Yes, I know it's not the correct way to write a foreign name, but I. Don't. Care. XD I was like "Squee, I wrote my name!" *headdesk* I'm like a little kid.

( savin' ur flists, one cut at a time )

So I played chess today for the first time in....months. It was a good match. Pretty long, and really messy. Elegance is not my style when it comes to chess. I have a couple of tricks at the beginning of the game, and if those fail, then I clear-cut as much as I can. XD It was a really good game. I actually got kind of excited. I probably looked stupid, lol, bouncing around in my chair and smacking my face with both hands yelling "THAT WAS SO STUPID, NOOOO WHY'D I DO THAT PLEASE TO NOT BE NOTICING THE FACT I'M AN IDIOT."

I promised I'd play her again tomorrow. ♥

My friends? I am made. Of lose and fail.

So I've been reading xxxHOLiC all morning, because I figured, hey, I'll have another series to follow besides Tsubasa RESERVoir CHRoNiCLES. Anyway, I'm on chapter 107. And I realized it's the part where Yuuko gets a certain visitor from another world. And I squeed. out. loud. and. flailed.

This is pathetic, no? -_-; Anyway. I just thought I'd share that. Regardless, I'll probably update later, once I've read the rest up to the current chapter (154? 157? Something like that.)